average indefinite

Sir Chris,

“Demand a little…”

I asked. I tried. Nobody gave me anything. Nobody was willing to save a scrap of their time for me. I’m just average indefinite.

So I masked because I’m tired.

But then it is tiring too to laugh when already falling to pieces… and to cry when you know that nobody cares.

Average Indefinite?
I am trying to balance what I feel with what I should feel. Everyone’s a liar sometimes, but I see that everyone’s lying to me—even myself. I say, even you.

I love you but I feel that I shouldn’t. But everyone’s a lover! This average indefinite person would gladly be everyone to you if you only ask… but even if I try to be everyone (that you need) to you, I will be tired because I will just be trying to demand from you a little something that you would not be able to give.

And that’s Love.

~Cherry

Insanity

Sir Chris,

I guess I am lost once more.

A friend told me that there is this line of insanity between being in love and falling in love. I asked her what she meant by that, but her lips only gave me a smile—a knowing smile that told me where I stand… and yes, where you are to me.

I refrained from blogging since things are undeniably unfavorable—even for you. I am sincerely sorry for the trouble, but this I tell you: a lot admire you; and perhaps, like me, have fallen for you too. So just get used to it. Get used to me (if you have not forgotten about me already).

I truly am lost—truly, so and so. I tried forgetting you, only was I not successful but the frustrating truth be told, I was nearly successful! Almost fell off that cliff—my friend’s so-called ‘insanity’ But I hung by a thread.


You see, I discovered that just being in close proximity to that cliff, one can be insane also—caused by the fear of losing someone really important, really special. So, here I am again. Lost in love with you—still lost in love with you.


But do you know why I decided to hold on? It is because you are my insanity. If I fell off that cliff, I will just fall for you again.



A Belated Happy Birthday, Christopher Jay Robidillo.




~Cherry